It has been a long time

It has been a long time since I wrote and posted some thoughts on my musings. The world has continued to spin, but I feel that it is spinning backwards. The orbit we are all in does not look promising, I say this even though the ‘civilized’ human race has been around for 5,000 to 6,000 years. That period is when written language of some sort was developed, megalopolis and governments where first recorded. And certainly, the world spun backwards and forwards during those times where war, famine, drought and various other environmental and human caused events took place. And so we have been bumbling along.

Should I worry?

I have been making art constantly. I have not thought of exhibiting or selling at all. I have very much relished and enjoyed this freedom to do exactly what feels is me. I have freed myself from any economic incentive or even ego satisfaction. I’m just passionate about this. I feel for actors, who have to continuously be judged for a role based on looks, timing, connections and a variety of other factors. I can’t think of any positives running from rejection after rejection.

My only incentive for exhibiting is really that I am running out of space! And maybe, that is what it will take. I hate being rejected or judged. And I don’t want to explain anything about my work.

I realize that selling is part of the incentive, but I have always wondered why authors, after spending countless hours writing a book, go on talk shows, bookstores, etc and talk about what they wrote. Why? Shouldn’t the contents be enough?

My paintings appear while I dream. Often the image stays with me a long time, years, in which I think about it. Sometimes the dreams and images come true in real life, when I have actually seen an image that existed in my dream. And sometimes it is the other way around, where I see an image in real life or experience something and then I dream about it.

You will have to come to my talk to learn more.

What?? Enuff.